While I found it fairly easy to accept that my executive function has always been spotty (until I was on track with a major I enjoyed, I never turned in a paper on time from high school through a few years of undergraduate study), and my persistent drive for autonomy was always evident (to me, anyway) even though I *seemed* to be a very biddable child, teenager, and employee, the quality you wrote about that I've tried not to see in myself is RSD.
Because I was not encouraged by my parents to bring school friends home or go to their homes, I thought that was why I didn't have many friends. Because I'm so dang independent, the idea of offering my writing for publication appeals less and less as I near completion of the first draft of a novel. I was angry because the actress cast in a role I coveted was so inadquate, not because I was rejected! Only as I read your latest post did I start to consider also claiming rejection sensitive dysphoria. Hm. Food for thought! Thank you.
While I found it fairly easy to accept that my executive function has always been spotty (until I was on track with a major I enjoyed, I never turned in a paper on time from high school through a few years of undergraduate study), and my persistent drive for autonomy was always evident (to me, anyway) even though I *seemed* to be a very biddable child, teenager, and employee, the quality you wrote about that I've tried not to see in myself is RSD.
Because I was not encouraged by my parents to bring school friends home or go to their homes, I thought that was why I didn't have many friends. Because I'm so dang independent, the idea of offering my writing for publication appeals less and less as I near completion of the first draft of a novel. I was angry because the actress cast in a role I coveted was so inadquate, not because I was rejected! Only as I read your latest post did I start to consider also claiming rejection sensitive dysphoria. Hm. Food for thought! Thank you.